The Altar Does Not Answer Indecision

There comes a point where what you’re calling discernment is no longer discernment: it’s indecision.

In this drop, we explore decision as a devotional act: the moment where vision stops living solely in the psyche and begins reorganizing reality.

A transmission on spiritualized hesitation, self-imposed stagnation, self-leadership, and the realization that my own business remained plateaued almost to the dollar (!) for years, until I made decisions that required reality to meet me differently.

The opportunities, clients, and rooms you desire do not respond to wishcraft alone but to embodied participation.

If this lands, make it tangible: book an Intensive.

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Welcome to Business Priestess Activation, audio docks for mystics in business, where entrepreneurship is ritual, strategy is soulcraft, and expansion is inevitable. I'm Elizabeth Rowan, spiritual mentor, yogi, and business priestess. Here, we don't do formulas, we do fire. These transmissions are potent activations to ignite your long-term strategy, self-leadership, energetic mastery and embodiment, and lasting legacy in the world. Because your sacred work isn't just business, it's business and being. Let's begin. Welcome back, Priestess. I was about to head out on my morning, get your mind right walk, and can't even do that without first sharing this transmission with you. The altar does not answer to your indecision. The altar does not answer to your indecision. There is a point where what you're calling discernment is no longer discernment. Rather, it's indecision, and the altar does not answer to that. So the work, the beautiful, impactful, profound work that you are here to do, the clients, the invitations, the opportunities, the creations do not respond merely to interest or quote unquote alignment. They respond to one thing, and that's devotion. Devotion in your business takes the form of decision. Let that land. Devotion in your business takes the form of decision. You hear me talk often about the swift sword of discernment. Yes, only when it manifests as actual decision. I keep uh, well, lots of running documents, but a number stock, right? That's all of my numbers for the past 15 years, actually, albeit 15 years of business this summer. And I routinely look back at them and you know, it tracks trends and so on and so forth. And there were a couple years there where my revenue was nearly identical, almost to the dollar, almost to the dollar year over year. Like just a total flat line ceiling plateau. Oh, consistency nailed it. This is not because I wasn't working, quite the contrary. I was doing more, interestingly enough, at a flat line than to blast through that. That's another drop. This was happening because I had not yet made the decision that required a different level of myself to move. And this is the part people don't want to hear. This is the part that I work so often with clients about. Sometimes the thing keeping you where you are has nothing to do with the circumstance. It's the refusal, and this can run deep, deep, deep, to decide beyond your current self. We are experts, adept, magicians at maintaining our own personal current embodied status quo. This is the nobody move, nobody gets hurt. Flat line that looks like doing all of the things, but I guess this is as good as it gets for me now. I'm here to speak from future you. That is a lie, and I hope that comes as a relief. I keep thinking about the meme of the woman who at first glance, it looks like somebody's stepping on the side of her face. And then it zooms out, and you see that she's the one actually with her hand in the boot, smushing it into her cheekbone. Indecision does that. And then you wonder why nothing is moving. While meanwhile, applying pressure to your own expansion and quote unquote, again, alignment every single day. This is a very subtle hesitation that can be quite sophisticated in the guises that it takes. Among much, this is why I find it imperative to work with mentors who really see you, see, know your patterns, and are willing to boldly reflect that back to you until you can hold yourself through alchemizing that at their side. Okay, example. One of my mastermind clients booked her mastermind spot inside fire transformation for the coming year. She booked in on New Year's Eve, all as a ritual. She didn't have every detail figured out. She didn't know how she was going to fully pay for the thing. She wanted to start several months from then at the time. She did this as a ritual, as devotion to the woman she had already declared and decided to become to become before the year even began. Cut to present, she has leapfrogged, leapfrogged even that vision, and now has become a published author of multiple books, is building out a brick and mortar, moved herself cross country, all as devotion. That's what I mean when I say that the decision is devotional. It's not reactive, it's not, oh my gosh, panic spiral, let me join a new micro program or hire someone else or download my 900th freebie. We've all been there. But the invitation is to mature your business and how you relate to it out of a reactivity, out of a transactional nature. And then it becomes yes, embodied, and then it also becomes consecrated. I might even say cosmically so. Here's the expansion invitation. You don't get to, you don't want to stand at the edge of what you want, waiting for confirmation that it will work. It doesn't go like that. And my gosh, we so wish it did, right? And it becomes this like anxious avoidant dance with your calling of like, whoever goes first, we're both watching, like one foot in, one foot out. I'll trust if you trust, in which case nobody moves and you just remain standing at the edge of what you want for eternity. And then that starts to create really shitty evidence for your system. That's when you get into, well, I guess it's not meant for me. I guess this is as good as it gets resignation. And I, for one, won't stand for that on your behalf when we work together. You don't get to hover in this almost ready in and out state and call that integrity. You don't get to ask for the room, the expression of what you want without becoming the one who holds it. I'm actually starting next week a 10-week journey specifically for yoga teachers on this very thing, the energetics and the logistics of becoming the one who holds the room and curates it for yourself and everyone inside. If you're curious about that, message me and we can determine if that is a good fit for you. I don't move once something is guaranteed. And the previous drop to this, I decided and then it existed, is all about that. I move when it becomes clear in my body that it belongs to my work, and then I build. I had this conversation inside the fire of transformation call with my mastermind women yesterday around you move and then things start to arrive. You move and then you build it out before it's validated, before anybody else understands it, before there's evidence, you make the evidence. Now, this is not to be confused with forcing, hustling, super attaching to outcomes, etc. Quite the contrary. This is you in co-creation. This is you in co-creation with the life that you say you want. This is you in co-creation with the business that you say you want. This is the prayer that I refrain over here all day long, which is I do my part in the scene realm and trust you, gestures wildly, to CYA in the unseen. I do my part in the scene and trust you in the unseen. And there is when we dance. That's when you dance. This always makes me think of that scene from Eat Pray Love, which I have not watched that in years. But of all things that film brought forth, this is my favorite part. Where she's having the conversation with the guy in the meditation center, and he shares the anecdote of the man wanting to win the lottery. You know this one. He prays every day, dear God, please let me win the lottery. Begging, negotiating, if I win the lottery, this, that, and the other. Until finally, God is like, my son, buy the ticket. This is that. And I think mystics especially forget this because we can risk going so far into the ether, so far into prayer, devotion, etc., that we forget to participate. We forget the surrendered participation portion of the programming. That vision without movement just stays in your psyche on your altar, not activated. This is what I mean when I say entitled this drop, the altar does not respond to indecision. At some point, devotion has to take form. This is why ritual doesn't happen just in your head. In fact, this is an entirely different drop, if not yoga teacher training. But the psychology of ritual, ritual's not just cute candle magic spiritual accessories. Rather, the psychology of ritual is based in cueing the unconscience to change, cueing the unconscious to change. That becomes the identity. The women who I work with do not wait to be convinced. They decide, just like the woman who knew she wanted to next year at the time be inside the mastermind. Okay, I want this for myself. I want this body of work for myself. I can see how I want things to play out. This is the bold action, the leap off of the edge into the bleak, dark flail of the abyss that I'm willing to make on my own behalf to co-create that reality. My clients decide, and then they meet. We reverse engineer this. Then they meet that decision with, then comes the structure, the movement, the reverence, the support capable of holding what they ask for. So the scaffolding follows the decision, is the catalyst. And that is a very different way of living and building and being in a true co-creative state with the mystery and your reality. I could go on. I'm on fire on this on your behalf today. My clients are all about to hear about it when I take my walk that I mentioned because morning lighting you up in Voxer is my favorite pastime. If you are standing at an edge right now where you already know the move and you have been lingering, investigating, circling, reflecting, awaiting alignment, you can even feel the energy of all of those words. Rather than moving, book an intensive. This is a catalyst, a leapfrog effect, just like the client example that I shared with you. This is where we take the decision out of theory and anchor it into your reality. And adjacent, if what you're building requires a longer arc of refinement and leadership and expansion around this, you can message me or apply, the link will be in the show notes, to Fire of Transformation Mastermind. The altar does not answer indecision. It answers the one who chooses to co create in that state.